7/12/02 - Spin Spin Sugar

Harpy, who'd have thought....all in all its working out well for me. I think, in some ways, it was what I was doing all along, god knows I've made a few enemies, and I don't always have the tact or finesse required for the job, but maybe the St Louis residents don't respond to tact and finesse either. Goes right over their heads half the time.

I don't regret giving up the position as Keeper, though admittedly I did that impulsively because I was angry. It really is the best thing for sect - and I'm not just saying that. Elena mentioned flippantly that I was the head of the only "functioning social body of the camarilla", it wasn't meant to be a compliment, but I kind of took it as that, considering all the other disfunctioning bodies, clan groups, primogen councils...etc. I can't directly affect any of those, so I work with what I can.

Arkady's been in a fugue, being worn down by the endless line of bitches and complaints of the masses, who can't or won't take it to the primogen, and have no official avenue to take to complain about minor squabbles and get results. The harpies serve as a deflection, and in a way we can solve many of these minor disputes, with the creative uses of boons and the all powerful weight of public opinion. It's a love-hate thing, people hate to be on the receiving end of a social snub, but it certainly helps if you've been wronged and have some method of recourse. Certainly serves a purpose for someone to be keeping track of favors owed and insuring that a person gets what's owed or vice versa.

And then you wonder, why on earth do I even help Arkady, he could easily be driven off his pedastal simply by the morass of bitching and whining and complaining of the masses that think he's personally responsible for solving all their incidental problems. I could just sit back and watch, and stand WAY back when the shit finally does hit the fan. But then what happens, a new Prince, a new social order, I start from scratch, and odds are I'll be worse off than I was before - and so will everyone else. Besides, on that night when Emmanuel had left and the Toreador Eliza was ready to seize Praxis, I chose Arkady as my champion. I knew it wasn't going to be easy, and the odds weren't great for his success, but he was my champion, and I won't give up on him. Nor will I give up on this city or the pseudo free-state that Arkady represents.